I love fall. It's my favorite time of year. The chill in the air, the leaves turning and falling, and my favorite holiday, Halloween (Samhain). I had to stop at Wal Mart the other night, to get Over the Hedge for the girls, and I came across some great deals. At first, I only had in mind to get the movie. But I was sucked into the bargin isle. I saw some funky shaped plates and bowls, and in the back of my mind I knew I was looking for something like that, but couldn't remember why. Two isles later, it hit me. I wanted a different shaped plate and bowl for rituals, so I could stop using the regular dinner ware. So, I turned myself back around and searched for what I wanted. I found a black, square shaped plate for $1 and bowl for $.75. I couldn't pass that up. And they must have been marking stuff down to make room on the shelves, because I found a set of four wine glass for almost half off. I got them for $2. I needed a new one anyway, as Moonie pushed the one I used for ritual off the kitchen counter and broke it. So, for less than $4, I got everything I needed. I am very proud of myself.
Also, for the upcoming holiday, I am preparing for my week of ritual fasting. However, I don't go the complete week without. I do daylight hours only. Sun up to sun down. A few people raise an eyebrow at me when I do this, but everyone else if used to it. And one of the main reason why I do this is to pay homage to the several times in my life that I have had so little food, and still survived. Also to clear my mind, and cleanse my body for the rituals that I have planned. I think I'll also do some clutter cleansing, and space cleansing this time around. Granted, I got rid of a ton of crap when I moved, I can stand to get rid of more. I guess I'll just have to see how motivated I get, huh?
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
After reading Angel's latest post, I have remembered exactly what I have been forgetting for the past several years. Positive thought, focus and meditation. As I told her, I kinda got side tracked by life. And not in a good way. I honestly can't remember the last time I sat down to meditate. I can't remember the last time I focused on a goal that I really want. And positive thoughts have been in short supply, except when it comes to my knitting. It seems that I have let life run away with me. I have been so wrapped up on failed relationships, my children growing up too fast, money problems, and a myriad of other things. I feel as if my life has left me behind. That has resulted in depression. And in my depression, I have let so many things go. For one, I have gained back alot of weight that I worked so hard to get off and keep off for several years. And I have turned into the other "itch" word, the with the B and not the W. And I mean with a high, royal, capitol "B". That's not me, and that's not who I want to be. So, over the next several weeks, I will take the opportunity to plan for Samhaim. I will plan a really good cleansing ritual, and a good spell for a better new year. I also think that a ritual fasting is in order. That always seems to help clear my mind. So, if anyone would like to join me, in your own way, from where ever you are, let me know. 'Cause the moral support and postive thoughts always come in handy.